i know you gonna read this, so read it kay. but you have to read it bcus this is for you. not hurting you but saying things out which is in my heart about you. alright?


first and foremost, i wanna say a big big thank you to you bcus you take good care of me everytime you are there for me. and you've showed me what's love and what's life. the best of you is your love and care. you never fail to make me feel happy whenever i meet you. once again, thank you so much.


i know you are upset with my attitude. the changes that has happen to me, hurt you the most. and you've tried to bare with it. i'm sorry baby, i didn't mean to leave you but yea, you're only my friend. and wont be more than that. there's always a reason why i do this. i'm sick and tired of life. you gave me strength to continue with my life. but baby, i can't depends everything on you, i have to stand on my own feet.


i dont mind waiting for you even it takes a year. but baby, if every weeks, we will always quarrels non stop and which makes me cry like nobody business, i get tired of it easily. seriously, i'm not into relationship anymore. and i am enjoying life without anyone controlling me. thats the best thing i have right now.


i know you've been keeping things to yourself. when i ask you, you dont wish to tell me. whyyy? after everything happens, than you admit and tell me the truth. baby it's too late. you never stop me before anything happens. you will always say " do whatever you want to do. " so i do it. no point regret okay?


and i know you are lying to me. you need attention from me. and thats why when i ask you why you were at home. and you said that you on the run. hey ! i know you are lying okay. i straight away called ibu up and asked. great ! i love the way you play every roll of your lies okay? continue with it. im sure you are happy enough. nevermind, think before you do anything alrights?


maybe not for me. but for the sake of Ayah and Ibu. yes, they worry more about you than i do. when i talk to ibu, i almost cried bcus the promises i made to her, is now broken by me. i can't help ibu to take care of you, give you some advises and making sure you'll always back to hostel. yeaa, i felt guilty. still, i need to move on with life even though this happens.


so baby, take care of yourself. if the words brought you to tears, i'm sorry that i couldn't wipe away for you anymore. move on with life, dont think about me anymore? just treat like as i'm nothing, i suck. and we could still be normal friends okay. and tag me when you have read this. thank you.


with luv,
ikastar Jeponzxz.